I want to travel the stars.
I want to breath time.
I want to create in thought.
I want to control fate.
I want to be a force.
I want to feel the power.
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the reoccurring nightmare of Roger Rabbit

So I'm sitting here listening to Depeche Mode's new album, Sounds of the Universe. So far, I am very much liking it. But anyway to business...my brain. Went to a couple of Halloween parties last night. Not to shabby. I won't lie, we all realized we made a terrible mistake leaving the first one. Atmosphere and people were better, and it was a nice big open place to have a party. The next party we decided to go, was ok. More of a kickback honestly. So theres possibly some of you here that might just stumble across my blog, and just decide to read. Sometimes, I just don't know what this planet is up to. So after having a decent sized talk with someone, who once meant something, I basically decided to stop trying anything, and just wait for the bus to get here. I believe that one is out there, but I still have to wait. That other life force that completes the equation is somewhere wondering out there, but its not time to revolve into each others energy. Not yet. Besides I am still trying to get my career path aligned here first off. I know what I want to do, and how I will do it. Just need the jumpstart.


...Mid-blog, I need to get some water and food to REFUEL...
(an hour later...)


Ha wow ok so everyone for that long break!! I actually did a lot more than I thought I would. Went to a friend's house for a minute just to chill and got a few things and finally came back here. Lets get back shall we? It just now took me a minute to figure out what was killing the back of my leg and it was a very cold coke can, that I FINALLY removed. Sometimes I feel I would be good in the ollll' movie business. Like directing/producing, not acting. Like I have always been a visual person in general. Thats how I learn things best, visually. My light shows are very visual. I have always made sure things look good for when people see/hear. My thoughts on things are different. (And no, I will not share any thoughts at this moment) My ideas are a little strange to certain approaches as much as my dreams. When most people look left, I look right. When most people watch tv, I watch those people. If the majority of the people surrounding me wear all american eagle clothing, I won't. If they all have chucks, I won't. I like to be unique, I like to be different, I don't like being typecast into any major group. That's why I am so, me all the time. Hahah this all might seem a bit confusing but basically I'm letting you into the lower crevices of my brain and how I work and function.  It has been an interesting day has it not? Life's little surprises, they pop up when you least expect em. I know mine's out there wandering around. We are all happy when we come across those surprises. On a smaller note, please take the chance to at least listen to In Chains on the Sounds of the Universe album by Depeche Mode. Quite an interesting treat. Happy Halloween.    -peace-

Uh oh? another one of this trips? damn son, you gotta watch it.

this is funny first of cause this was a text i was gonna send to my friend even tho his phone was turned off cause he would still just recieve the message but not be able to reply, and it turned out to be a long message so i thought i'll describe it to the whole class...

...dude, i am trippin right now, remember the times we realize, while on a certain amount of "candy", when we are soooo high we would reach that other galaxy where time was slow and it sometimes seemed you were two people at once. and you know you would travel fast through the galaxy and time would mean nothing. one second to a sober human person would feel like 10,000 years for you compared to that one human second. I LIVEEE THRU THAT SECOND. every emotion or feeling put into music blisters through your brainwaves. its because of the amount of consumption we are able to increase brain usability up to like 15% maybe, with the amount of brain power, complexity, creativity, thought process, an understanding of being extremely strong and available to your brain..
     i just wanted to say thats how im feeling right now!!!

...so ends another hairy adventure, do to spice. not a big fan of this stuff even if i do get massive flashbacks.
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Another day, another eighth.

"another day, another dollar" is what it should have said, but i changed the title so that you would assume more interest into your brain and would continue on to read this story. haha now that i've just woven a path for you in this story i will begin. it was a random weekday night this last week when me and a best friend decided to eat mother natures magical candy, magic mushrooms. and quite an interesting we had indeed. we decided to eat 3.5 grams each and had 1 gram left remaining and said "fuck it, lets eat the rest anyways" so consumed 4 grams each. what ensues, is hard to explain, but clearly defines the trip as best as humanly possible. i have shroomed twice before, and knew each time, nothing would clearly start to happen after 45 mins. but tonights trip would be a lot different. As soon as consuming all I decided to smoke a bowl of spice, 5 mins--- "Man this interdimensional highway is such a long way home" -Me discussing what I was seeing/feeling like on the ride back home. Josh says I said nothing and just sat there til 20 mins later. "Man, I have been gone a long time" I didn't remember the previous 15 mins.  "I feel like it has been 6 years that I have been sitting here." Josh precedes to tell me it has only been 20 minutes. I looked at him shockingly, "what? no no no, what time is it? what time did i eat them?" told me the times, i did the math it had only been 20 minutes. seems there's something sneaky about spice... everything was a lot different in this alien world i had arrived. things were similar but different then earth. very quiet, but very warming. earth was a big awkward planet sometimes. this planet felt comfy. things we're never as they seem. plants were welcoming and beautiful. creatures had complex souls. time felt a lifetime. as if one earth second was 100 of years for what i felt. time was of no importance. i knew i was "tripping" but i knew i would be here for eons on this fantastic planet. being able to control light, give life and death. to be able to create life in light and kill it all the same. to be able to control its fate. that is what i did, once i started to light shows with gloves. every move precise and in detail made for in viewer including myself. every show i decide to give i play only off the beats and words of the music. if the song has emotion my light show will have emotion. i left the pyschoactives in my body take over and let me control light in a way i could not do sober. watch as walls and floors are all one color moving all over the place. we went outside into the street of this planet. many lights. but no cars. very quiet. very kept. we went to a field of sorts, walking through it to feel the energy that the planet literally pushes out into the air. this planet is different. the planet is very spiritual. the people that populate this planet are just forms of energy the planet leaks out but in shells of animals. we are all creatures or living things are we not? being able melt with the planet was fantastic. their music was fantastic. so much emotion but happy emotion within. the songs would play on for 1000 of years in earth time. such masterpieces. we thought we had beautiful music? nothing compared to what this alien planet has. and finally through all my adventures and traveling i decided to finally lay down for a nap, but only soon would realize that i woke up, and found that it was now only a dream and nothing more again.

Another trip another day

Good evening everyone. Theres a certain high that can be reached depending on what you consume/intake. After passing a normal threshold of amount to over consume, you begin to feel abnormal. Take for instance now, I feel a sort of leaning gravity into a strong situation of emotion. As I look at my keyboard, the vision seems slightly frayed, and at a smaller glanced view. Ha in fact when i look at what I am typing right now, with my glasses, (oh sorry there, for a second I thought gravity was pulling backwards, wow that was a long insert i just said:) ), i see my hands like through a magnify glass. Its actually quite brilliant though. These glasses are insane, I am like looking through a magnifying glass. Whoa, just saw something move in the corner, thats quite interesting. And you realize now the only reason you have been reading is this, is just simply to see in my mind. And I would like to thank you for taking a stroll through my brain, did you hear any Deadmau5 on the way through? Realize now this world can be as complex or easy as you make it. So you decide where you want to go on any crazy adventures, like through my brain. That was a trip now wasn't it? Take this as just a simple but awesome adventure story.


Goodnight,  


"another day is another treasure"
"love the air you breath to live"

My perfect woman.

I decided to take a night to talk about love and relationships, and who I'm looking for. Im at that age where I know what love is. The force/connection between two people. A regular boring relationship that doesnt work is generally do to a missing fuel piece from that whole combination. My perfect girl will be like me a lot, but completely different. haha im gonna say she will probably be more cooler than me, but will probably love me cause of my dorkiness. Time will not seem to remain as days with the person only seem like minutes, time with them travels fast, so your always craving them on still, and the longer you date it still feels so no, a constant energy that goes through both parties. The ability to function as one. Being able to just look at them and they know exactly whats going through your head. Able to pass any challenge. In the end, always still loving. Love that equates to their own galaxy they have by themselves. There are perfect people out there for each other, I just want to find my one.